Un-weighing the weights

It is weighing me down.

Lord, please lighten it.

I do not want a stronger body or a steadier head above this frail shoulders.

I wish for You to hold me tighter, keeping me close by Yourself, within Your cleft.

Stressful Rest, Restful Peace

First year into work, I took 5 days leaves in a row! It drew quite a few raised eyebrows in the office. Couldnt care less though. Was off to Langkawi with classmates from Notts Uni and then off to church camp in Camerons. That week was a crazy week. It had been so stressful and ..erm...stressful. Haha..

I could only finish the important and urgent pieces of exercise late in the evening on my last day at work prior to holidays. Then off I ventured into a whole week of driving, travelling, adventure and ended with quietening of the heart at the blissful Camerons.

Having a friend over from Zhongshan, a few of us drove up to Langkawi. Stayed by the beach and this dear friend was worried if tsunami would come and sweep us away into the sea when dawn comes. Haha...Perfectly understandable I guess when you just left the typhoons behind in your country!

Ate much, tried much local food, ventured deep into the villages in search of cheaper seafood and authentic cuisine, we werent disappointed. Started off in KL, then to Ipoh, Langkawi, Bukit Tambun...wow..we all should have more similar road trips!

After that was off to Camerons. The track up to Camerons never fails to set my stomach spinning and push the liquid in my eardrums off balance. Was glad to say I kept the digested food inside my stomach and not out onto John's car. This camp was really a very refreshing one. The messages were plain and clear and they hit me right in the heart. I was struggling in the beginning to get into the mood of camp bacause I have been so worried bout work. I didnt realise how much work has eaten into my life until that point. I cant believe it myself. The first two days were great struggle. The messages werent getting through and I was not listening. I prayed and when they finally got through, I broke down and cried. Emotionally distressed and more tears, God was listening.

God saw through my heart and I was comforted that He knew what were bothering me. Truly, matters of the heart are always most tangled. No wonder it says in Ecclesiates that let not our hearts be aroused until it is ready. God, may you guard our hearts and emotions until it's time.
As more episodes enfold, I pray that may we be kept close to our Lord and every corners of our hearts be searched that God may truly be our first love and to remain as our first even after earthly attachments.

Crumpled sheet

I wonder if juice comes out from a crumpled sheet of paper. If it does, I wonder what it tastes like. Would it be sour? Or would it be sweet? Would the paper scream? Could that piece of crumpled sheet ever be un-crumpled again?