My HOE invited me to a fellowship lunch, held every Friday on the floor above mine for all Dialog christian employees. The aim was to recognise the christians around, have fellowship together and to encourage and remind each other of our roles in lives as followers of Christ despite the busy-ness in at work. It was for good course of course. I went and sat down in a circle. As the clock strikes one, more and more people came in through that far corner door into the room. I know most who came in but I did not know they too were believers. Just as I sat on that chair and looked around me, a sense of sadness overwhelmed me. I was shamefully reminded of my outburst and constant complaining and "cursing" at some who came in because of indifference at work. I was also shamefully reminded of the strife we had because of indifference. And as we sang and he played the guitar, I stared in shameful awe. Standing beside me, playing the guitar and leading the singspiration was the man whom I earlier conflicted with. And I thought, what hipocrisy. As I judged this man, I was brought to a reminder that God too is judging me. I had also sinned the same sins. I prayed that God would realign my actions and thoughts at work that as I professed that I am your follower, let me be truly a practising believer. I prayed that God will radiate His love to the people within this building through ugly vessels like me and that I would always be mindful of my actions less I shame that One who died for my sins in Calvary. I am looking forward to more fellowship meetings like this. God has indeed been mindful of me.
Another event in life took place three days ago. Father of a good sister of mine has passed on. Apart from feeling extremely shocked and saddened, I was also shaken. And it brought to mind, how wonderful it is that God has called me. But it also brought about grim reminder of what ifs any of my family members die without knowing God. What if anything happen to them and they leave without me telling them bout the God I believe in. Why am I afraid and shameful to tell them bout my God? I wished I had more courage. God, I pray that You would also bring to them the saving knowledge of yours. I pray that they wont go until they hear about You. God, please have mercy on them.
We need to be prayerful. As life sweeps us away in busy-ness, what is the real meaning of life?
As I review my thoughts and outlooks of life, what exactly does life mean? I find my previous views of studies, relationships, work all shattered. I find myself being detached more from my fellow friends from church. I find it easier to walk away than to make efforts to carry out conversations. I find my the breath of my life being sucked out slowly and unrecognisably. I find the room around me squeezed another inch or two smaller.
What is happening?
