Was in Hong Kong some days ago for Karman's wedding. Had an anwesome time meeting up with uni mates and going around the island. Such privellege to be able to break bread with the brethren in Onn Fook Gospel Hall as well. Everything was in Cantonese and I thought the language was so beautiful, especially when bible verses were read out in that language.
Much has really happened these few months. I often started off with loads in my head to share but as soon as these fingers hit the keyboard, the thoughts in my head suddenly seem too menial to be recorded. But one thing I must really thank God for was the privillege to experience His mercy in finance. I have heard a message before on how to trust God in finances and God will never owe or rob His people. Therefore we should give more to our Lord. In this age of grace, I don't believe that tithes still apply but often it's the giving of more than tithes that's difficult. I decided to trust God in this matter and tried giving more. Often in months, I would have enough to survive. And lately God has blessed me even more with a little adjustment in salary and it actually matched what I've given. I am thrilled.
Another thanksgiving item was in the area of service. I have often thought that I would never fit in any ministries in church. Or so I thought. But last Watchnight service, my heart moved when I heard that Teens needed more sisters. I thought..let's give it a shot. Mei Sun approached me and I thought it wouldnt hurt much to just observe. Soo Aun mentioned countless times that since I'm observing, I am not obligated for anything. 2 months have passed and I couldnt believed how much I've enjoyed being with this group. During one of the chats with Wenli, she pointed out that we would enjoy our service if God willed us to be there. It would not be a drag if it's really the area that God has intended for us. After YA, I had much difficulties finding my place in the assembly and I struggled much to fit in. It's only when I prayed for God to take full control of this life that things begin to fall into places. And indeed, God kept to His promises. Now, I enjoy prayer meetings, Teens and Sundays much more than before.
I now need to resume the bible readings with Wenli. And hey, if you're reading this, let's get this started once again.
And with the boys, I enjoyed being with them so much. This is the age where they still have much innocence and purity and yet exploring the teenage qualities. I still see them crying one moment after losing a game and standing up for another friend the next. I absolutely love them! And my prayer for now is that If God willed to use me further with this group, use me Lord.
As of matters of the heart, I've decided that I shall just chill it. God has provided much opportunities for interaction. Uncle spoke on marriages today in church. And he mentioned that marrriage is intended for partnerships. Eve was created as a helper for Adam. They formed a partnership to keep the garden and the animals. Sin came in and spoilt it all. Therefore, my outlook to this matter should be of a pertnership as well. I do not know how God will work in this area but if You will, I will continue to wait. There are just too many what ifs.
The last time Darsh came back, we had opportunities to talk about this too. And we decided that indeed that unless God willed, things will not work out no matter how dreamlike and probable things are in our human eyes. And our God specializes in heart keeping.
Meanwhile, as much as this heart decides to move on, God seem to be closing doors of outside opportunities. Maybe You want me to stay on Lord. But if You really do, make my stay in this company somehting worthwhile. Perhaps, it's CF. Perhaps it's other matters.
